If You Knew.doc

If you knew,

If you only knew.

How I felt today when I missed you?

Beyond words.

The words I wrote in the air

When I thought of you,

just thought of you?

Beyond poetry.

What I wished for

When I couldn’t breathe thinking

I might lose you?

Beyond air.

What I would give

To have you love me

with everything that you are?

Beyond life.

What I could become

If you were..

No,

If I was yours?

Beyond imagination.

I Have Learned

I have marveled at beauty
I have felt ecstasy
I have ravaged purity
I have flown on the blazing wings of passion
I have touched grace
I have witnessed understanding
I have breathed in kindness
I have thrived on the charity of an angel
But until you
I had never
Known love

no i don't

funny you should think
that i hate you
hate
is such a strong
emotion
whereas you
don't matter

I, AM YOURS

You are my love.

You are my life.

Let not my nights keep turning into nights, as days escape me in a rush of pain.

I am disabled.

I am unable to reach beyond murmurs to express what my heart wants to promise.

Sounds just wave your vision away.

My brain is locked on a coordinate where you last stood, spoke, turned away....

You are my love.

You are my life.

Dislodge me from between this rock and that one so I may find my meadow.

I cry.

I try to listen out for soothing words but harsh talk slither into my ears instead.

Where is your voice.

My crucifix casts a blood-red shadow over my hope,

my life,

your slave.